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My Worst Fear By Andrea L. Alterman As a child I was afraid of dying in my sleep from nightmares that scared me with their bleeding into my daily life that now I don't recall which was life and which was dream, it was my wish, when I was eight, to die a painless death, one in which my father would hit me once so hard my body would hurt and then stop moving, and he'd be sorry, and he'd tell me of his sorrow, and I'd be dead, the way I was in those nightmares that played out on the screen of my sleep until I woke myself up, screaming, sweating up my bedsheets and ripping them in my fierce frenzy to be freed from their wrapping round my legs and stomach, but no one told me how nightmares can swallow reality, like the pick up sticks I played them every day, hoping that one night I'd have been good enough to get a dream I could die for. |
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